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Assalamualaikum.

Hye peeps. Hope all of you in the pink of health. Sekarang ni busy doing a lot of stuff yang remeh2 sampaikan study untuk last paper Formal Method pun bagai melepaskan batuk di tangga. Sekarang ni masa adalah amat2 kritikal untuk dibuang.  Niat di hati nak hang out dengan best friends but niat tu terpaksa dilupakan. Maybe xde rezeki dah.

Kadang2 terfikir satu benda, betul ke hubungan tu, apabila dia start aggressively, will end quickly coz ia macam terjadi kat aqu. Maybe benda tu semua kebetulan. Kadang2 we do everything to make the relationship run smoothly but end the end, it makes us regret for what we have been done.

I feel that maybe it is my entire mistake. Do thing without think first. Maybe I talked too much. Sometimes I think, am I really a bad person…. Most of my friends said that I’m too kind and too good because they do not know the real me. They think I’m the almost perfect person so if come to one mistake, the mistake looks like the BIG mistake. They probably not know that I’m human too, tends to do mistake again and again.

Probably, silent is the best. Less you talk, less you make mistake. It’s better to be ‘lone ranger’ than having a lot of friends but in the ends, hurt them much and they leave us one by one.

I think I will go with the flow. Let them talking and just agree with them. Semester is almost over and maybe I will not see them again, so; better leave with the good memories than leave with the conflict. Make the past as guide so that it will never happen in future.

Sayang rasanya bila pada saat2 akhir perpisahan terjadinya konflik. Sayang rasanya hubungan yang semakin erat hilang macam tu sahaja. Sayang sangat2 apabila persahabatan yang dibina hamper 3 tahun retak dengan satu kesalahan dan perbuatan.

Tapi rasanya itu merupakan takdir. Mungkin inilah percaturan yang ditetapkan oleh Yang Maha Esa, mengandungi hikmah2 yang tertentu. Mungkin hendak menyedarkan kita bahawa kita telah membuat sesuatu yang salah dan diberi peluang untuk memperbaiki diri kearah yang lebih baik.

Harap dapat baiki diri sendiri dan menjadi seorang manusia yang lebih baik daripada semalam